Even though I still struggle with suicidal ideation and not wanting to be alive, I have begun to do this new thing where when I feel low I look around and find something I am grateful or happy for. This morning it was as simple as seeing that one of my plants is growing taller. Yesterday I sipped some homemade iced tea and thought it tasted delicious. I have been trying to find these little tiny things that make me happy, even if it is just for a nanosecond. When I first started doing it it seemed silly but it has come to help me a lot. It also helps ground me when I am starting to go on autopilot. I just wanted to share this little "trick" with everyone and I am open to learning new methods to combat suicidal thoughts!