I'm new on here but I've had bouts with my feelings for yrs. I'm nineteen now nd I first started thinking about ending everything when I was 16. I was n a bad relationship and my dad was dying was dying of cancer. I swore if he died I would take my life cause I couldn't imagine living without him. He did die but I was pregnant at the Tim and looked at it as a sign to keep going. It's been two yrs now and a big part of me feels like I should have done it anyway. Now I have a child who I can barely support, I had a job but I lost it. Nd I've been living in my brothers house for over a yr and I have to move out by June. I don't have any money and no where to go. The only thing I have is a car. I got up this morning and packed my bags to just leave. And keep driving as far as the little money I do have would take me. I'm to the point of doing that or just leaving this world. And since money is tight nd leaving my child as a burden is somethin I couldnt live with I'm edging more toasted just ending it all. I've sat and cried so many times. I don't know what to. I feel like there's no point in going on.