Ever since I nearly died in the ICU last week after a really bad OD and cutting my wrists, I feel like a new person. I don't feel like myself anymore, but in a good way. I feel so happy, I'm enjoying, well, everything, myself, life, work, whatever, all of it, much more than I have ever thought possible. I am not manic, I'm not bipolar. I have this, calm, deep inside. I feel level and balanced. I really don't know how to describe it properly. But it feels so damn good. I want to just enjoy feeling like that, but every now and then it pops into my head "will it last?", "do I get to keep this?" Just wanted to say, don't give up, there is hope! I just wish I could have gotten here without all the other crap.