Allright, I plan on killing myself sometime after my 19th birthday, which is in may. So I was thinking, knowing your going to kill yourself soon gives you a whole new perspective on things. For example, I was looking at this eyeglasses shop and thought, "I should get contact lenses". Then I realized, It's not going to matter, I can live with glasses for another two months. And earlier I was reading gun laws about how if you are admitted to a psychiatric hospital you can't own guns in some states... and I thought how jacked up that was... then I was like, Hey! It doesn't matter! Just kind of thought it was interesting.