I got woken up at 3 am but an inconsiderate jackass and just for some reason so much came flooding out. This is what came of it. It's still untitled. I might eventually title it. Who knows? Thoughts? and you can be honest. I'm not here anymore, really. I'm just a body, just flesh and bones. I think the soul left the body years ago. The hearts been dying ever since. I'm not quite sure when this information became known. I'm not sure when it was all available. It's like going to the library and looking through the card catalog. Searching the meaningless dribble until you come to, "Soulless, vacuous body. Lost." You search and search for answers as to when it all happened. You look for information and data to come up with something reasonable. There really isn't any concrete answers anymore. Just one day my soul upped and called it quits. Said it didn't want to play this game anymore. Quite frankly after that I think the heart got the point. I think the heart picked up on the fact that it wasn't worth it. I can't find the date as to when. I can't highlight that fact. All the years of hatred and anger just seemed to meld together. Fact is, the damn card catalogue isn't really helpful. Searching through the database in my head is useless. The damn dewey decimal system is faulty. There is no way for me to know anymore. Nothing is helpful in my quest. I often thought of taking a journey to find my lost soul. Pictures title of new book "Journey to the Soul" or "Soul Hunters" or even "Journey for the Lost Soul" Such journey would consist of me going through my life. Trying to guesstimate when my soul decided to quit and when my heart decided to go with it. Such journey would take years. You can't pinpoint an exact time simply because there's so many. There's so many moments that it could have called it quits. You'd figure one would know when the sould left. Wouldn't you feel it? Wouldn't you know? Wouldn't you feel the life suck out of you? When the heart decided to follow wouldn't some form of existance die. I can't figure out how I'm still standing here when they've both left. I'm not here anymore, not really. I'm just a body, just flesh and bones. I think the soul left the body years ago. The hearts been dying ever since. God damn card catalog. Useless.