I am so unhappy about almost everything right now. I want to end it but feel it is wrong and that i will go to hell. Has anyone thought about electric shock to wipe ALL your memoeris. Would that give me a fresh start and maybe I would turn out differently the second time around? I have been thinking about this for 2 days now, sort of the same way i was obsesed with suicide. It is sort of calming, like now I have a plan. Thinking about going to a real doctor to talk more.