I haven't posted in awhile and feel it necessary to do so now. I have tried everything to enjoy this hand I was dealt in life. I just can't find it. I tried it all: sex, video games, walking in the park, movies. Nothing I do overcomes the grief I have of living at the moment. I was doing well for awhile and not drinking. Now I drink all day practically. I don't get waisted just slightly tipsy. A few sips every now and then. I just want to <mod edit - methods> and you know what. I just had to get this out.