Hi guys, I'm new and thought I would say hi. Honestly I'm a bit worried I'm to old for this (I'm 28), and even if I thought about it over the years I've never really talked to anyone about how much I think about suicide. I guess I've always had it in my mind that if I talk about it, I don't mean it, and would be seen as "the little boy who called wolf", or worse yet, get locked up until everyone thinks I'm "safe", and I would tell myself, it would only hurt them to know. The reason I am here is because once again I couldn't go through with it. Over the years (since I was about 12) I have made 5 different plans, though only 2 of them were truly well thought out and planned. One of those times was last weekend. I had everything ready but when it came down to it, I just couldn't bring myself to do the last step. I thought I had given up, but I guess not, atleast somewhere inside theres a part that wants to live. So I'm going to try and get better, I think. And so, I figured this would be a good first step. And that was probably more then anyone wanted to know, I'm sorry. Anyways, I look forward to exploring the board.