Hi i'm new to the forum and wanted to introduce myself to the rest of you on here. I have never entered onto such a forum but feel the time is right due to the strength of my feelings at this current time. It saddens me greatly that I feel the way I do, but I can't shake it. Having seen the recent news of the two complete strangers who met and <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods>, i know that where there is a definate will to end your life someone will always find a way. Many people in society regard suicide as a selfish act, as it is the ones who are left behind that suffer, but I do not think these people who make such judgements fully appreciate how much distress the person (S) who commit suicide must be in. I fight constantly with my feelings on a daily basis, and the only reason most days that I stay is because of my family and friends, and what my actions would do to them, but the pain I feel throughout each day can become unbearable, and I see no other way out. Is it fair for me to live a life constantly feeling that I do not want to be here, and every day the pain eats further and further into my soul, and destroys the person that I once was bit by bit. I feel ashamed sometimes, but will admit that when I hear of people dying by whatever means I always think they are the lucky ones, and wish it was me. the only time respite comes is when I go to sleep, but even in sleep I'm now haunted by people I don't want to be there.