Well I'm a 19 year old girl with issues and i don't know where to run sometimes. I feel like I have so much to say but then again, cant find the right words to express them or something. I think I'm really confused about everything & i bullsh*t myself about things all the time. I only hurt myself and i have no idea how to make this all stop. I don't really want to go to a doctor or see a therapist about this just for them to tell me I might be diagnosed bi-polar, or have depression, or anxiety, or whatever they want to tell me. I can tell you already I might be one of those things or maybe nothing at all, either way, I refuse my mom to spend her money on me over this; maybe I'm wrong for this. Anyways, im on this site just to see if maybe i can connect with someone who understands me.. im not necessarily looking for advice, although ill keep it in mind for when i am ready to take it. Its hard, i dont even know what im saying anymore.. i lost my train of thought.