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Discussion in 'Welcome' started by samhazy, Sep 7, 2011.

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  1. samhazy

    samhazy Member

    I have been on antidepressants since 1995 and whenever I have tried to go off of them, it has been a disaster and I am back on them. I have learned to live with that.

    I lost my Mum in 1999 (metastatic breast cancer) and my Dad in 2005 (colon cancer). I have an older sister who is autistic who, thank goodness, does not live with me. I don't know how we survived as a family when she lived with us. Autism is a very strange condition and the obsessive/compulsive dimensions of it are really trying for those around the autistic person. She is a big part of the reason I never married or had children. The thought of having a child like her is terrifying.

    I have been battling melanoma since 1995. The constant vigilance is tiring. In 1997 I was diagnosed with a pituitary adenoma. In 2000 I was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis and in 2009 with hypertension. Quit smoking in 2007 and have since gained 200 pounds. Food soothes me for a short time but then I come back to earth and hate myself more.

    My boss, who was also a very dear friend, died suddenly in July at age 53. He had become like family to me and I miss him daily.

    Between the health issues and the feeling of being almost alone in this world, I find myself checking train schedules more and more frequently xxxxxx. I don't understand why I can't get any help from my doctors and I struggle every day to get up for work so I can pay the bills to do it all again tomorrow. I'm having more and more trouble figuring out what it is all about and I truly feel I have nothing good to look forward to.

    Hoping to hear from some of you who have been where I am and found a way out other than the train thing.
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  2. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Hi and welcome...I have had many losses myself, so I do know how this feels...please PM me if I can be there for you
  3. Speedy

    Speedy Staff Alumni

    Welcome. :)
  4. kmj221

    kmj221 Well-Known Member

    Welcome!!!! You will find this site insiteful at times and overwhelming at times. Always remember to take care of yourself first. Welcome again.
    :IrishDoll: kmj221
  5. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Welcome to the forums..
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