let me start off by saying i haven't been happy in almost 3 years, it all started when my kids mother killed herself by overdosing on sleeping pills. then shortly after that i had my babies taken away from me cause i was a wasted/loaded/drugged up fool. couldn't hack the pain of her being gone, so i turned to my best friend now. booze and drugs have been good to me, they are the only thing i think that keeps me from repeating what she did. honestly i don't know why i am still here, i don't want to be at all. all i ever do is sit alone at home on the internet, only time i go out is to get food and other things. i have told all my so called scumbag friends to F-OFF. i don't want there words of encouragement around me cause they are NOT WANTED.