Hi, all. I'm new to this forum. But I thought I'd post something, see if I could find anything helpful. I'm a cutter. I started 4 years ago, but hadn't done it for a couple years until my fiancee broke up with me a few months ago. Cutting is like crack for me. I enjoy the pain, because I can UNDERSTAND why I hurt. I use a butter knife to lower the risk of hitting an artery, and maximize pain. I've thought about finding alternative ways to hurt myself without leaving marks (ice, rubber bands, etc) but I have to admit that I like having the scars and seeing the blood. Maybe I just want someone to notice and intervene. I had one friend notice, but all he said was that there are better ways to deal with things, and hasn't talked about it since. I'm not sure what I'm looking for. I don't know if I even want to stop cutting.