hello, this will be my first time here. 8 months ago I had the perfect life. lots of money, nice house, but that's all just materialistic crap the most important aspect of my life was a girl that I loved more than life itself. in 7 years we never fought, argued or disagreed. we liked all the same stuff...music, movies, activities. well I guess people fall in love all the time, well I guess she fell out of love with me and after all that time it took her one month to lie, CHEAT, and completely destroy my life. it has been 8 months since this happened and everyday I want to die a lil bit more. i'm so alone. I don't even have any friends anymore, I cut them all loose when I realized that they were not the kind of people I should be friends with (drugs, lyeing, stealing) just bad people. now I am no angel and have done lots of bad things in my life which I am not proud of, but i'm 29 now and realized about a year ago that I need to walk a different path. the bad part is that I know that in a million years I could never find someone as beautiful or compatible as her. I've looked for the last couple of months and only seem to find the wrong thing. honestly the only reason i'm still around is because I could not put that kind of pain on my family. they love me very much and are all I have. I can't do that to them.