Hello, I'm in my twenties I had a hospitalization with a diagnoses of schizophrenia a few years ago. I rehabilitated myself enough to work and live on my own. Since my recovery my family moved away and I found myself alone unable to form relationships and everyday being isolated because of my social disfunctioning. I'm envious of the people around me because I know I would enjoy life I could be like that again, able to play sports with buds, enjoy work, and form relationships but its been impossible despite a long time of trying. I'm fearless and not afraid of pain after this long struggle, I'm not in any crisis because the emotional toll on my family would be to great but I just hope one day I get lucky and I fall asleep dreaming of letting go.