Hi, I just joined today, and thought I'd share my story with ya'll. I wouldnt say I'm suicidal right now, but I have been in the past. In may, 1990, I was in a severe car/train accident, that killed my little brother and a family friend, and hospitalized me for 91 days with a severe frontal lobe injury, when the peramedics found me, I had blood coming out my nose, eyes, ears, and mouth, I had no pulse, and no heartbeat, I was comatose for over a week, and had to learn to do everything all over again, ever since then, I've suffered from depression, and survivors guilt. I've been to therapists since I was 7, when I got called to the office in school one day, b/c some of my friends were worried about me having suicidal thoughts, I just now found the right one last year; in about the 5th grade, I started having complex partial seizures, which I still have today; In about the 6th grade, when I was just getting interested in girls, there were certain girls that I was "interested" in, and I had this group of "friends" who took advantage of the fact that I'd been in an accident, and convinced me to do/say inappropriate things to those girls, thereby making me think I'd ruined any chance I'd ever have with them, therefore, I have yet to have any sort of serious relationship. I am now 26, and as you can tell, it is coming up on the anniversary of the accident again, and I am not taking it too well this year. Of course, that could be because of everything else that has been piled on me lately. I am having to get new siding, a new roof, and a new fence for my house, just so that I can get it insured, and the siding alone is estimated at $13565. Not to mention feeling trapped in my current situation, but I'll get into that later.