Okay.. So.. This feels, really weird, and to be honest, I'm not too crazy about it, but I had a friend reccomend this place to me.. I guess he thinks I need the help or something.. Wellumn.. My name's Corie, and I'm in ninth grade, first year of high school.. I've had problems going to school since about fifth grade, is when I really started missing time, but I've never liked school much.. I get really scared and jumpy at school, and it makes me miserable to be surrounded by all those people.. I just panic, and a lot of the time my head starts to spin and I kinda break off into my own world.. I get paranoid at school a lot and worry about everything, so that doesn't really help.. It's not like my childhood was super bad, or anything.. I mean, some things really stick in my head, but that's about it.. When I was five I watched my little brother get mauled by a dog, but he's okay now and stuff, but him and I don't get along, and I'm overprotective of him.. He gets angry a lot to, so there's a lot of verbal and physical fights.. My mom's just, a mom. She thinks she's doing the best she can, and in her mind she probably is, but it's not the right thing for me.. When I get mad I usually refuse to take my meds at the time she tries to give them to me, and I wait and do it later, so she smacks me around, and things always get exaggerated in my mind, so she seems pretty much like a monster.. My dad's getting better than what he use to be.. He has no idea the thing's I've tried to drink or how recently I've cut, but he talks to me and understands more now than my mom ever seemed to.. He's not around much though.. Sleeps all day, when he's up he's always doing something, and then he works all night, so I don't get to see my dad much.. Maybe part of the reason I stay home so much is to be close to my dad.. Okay, so I know this doesn't seem like, much of a post to get to know me, more like just a rant, but I guess it'll help to get an idea of how messed up everything is in my head. I just, get nervous a lot, and worry about everything.. I'm a total pessimist. Nothing is good in my mind, and I really find it hard to change that. I'm a protective big sister, and a protective friend. If my friend was to tell me he'd die when he was sixty, and he's only sixteen now, I'd panick for the rest of my life.. Ohyeah. I live in Michigan. Great state, not really.