I hate New Year's .. Always have done .. And I think I always will. Even when I was a child .. and long before I became depressed .. New Years Eve and New Years Day depressed me. No idea why. And now it's just even worse. And this year I don't get to spend it with the man I love. Or my friends. I am going out with my Mum and Stepdad .. to a pub that will be full of old people .. and I can't even get drunk like you're meant to on New Years Eve. Urgh. Roll on January 2nd.