I found this forum via Google. Isn't it strange that this pops up when you type the word? I am a Paramedic. Have been for 13 years. I have also been alone for 10 years. I work and I come home and I go to sleep and then I go to work again. It sounds incredibly attention seeking, pathetic and strange but I am haunted by the people I have met in my job. On my days off if I go out anywhere my thoughts are dominated by "I went to that job there", "that person died there", "I saw that there" and so on. 13 years on there isn't really anywhere that I can go that I don't see or remember someone. I can't sleep a lot of the time. I think about jobs I went to and analyse them....I think about what I could have done differently and whether it would have made a difference. I pretend I am fine. But deep down, I don't really think I am. Maybe this is a place where I could be completely honest without fear.