hi everyone im new on here this is my first post. I feel like crap today, have thought about suicide many times but have never actually done it. this morning i woke up and went the kitchen saw my anti depressant tablets and seriously considered necking the whole lot. i dont actually want to die i just would like to see what would happen if something bad happened to me or if i wasnt around. To make things worse i have a problem of worry, i worry about everyhthing. Last nite i was at the bar i work at and my boss asked me why half a bottle of brandy had gone missing.... well the previous nite at work the boy who i work with had tooth ache so i gave him a shot of brandy as i was told it wud numb the pain. it wasnt half a bottle it was one shot. i didnt even think about it at the time. i told my boss i new nothing bout the missing brandy. now i feel bad and am worried bout going into work 2nite. :sad: why do i wory so much bout such silly things?