Well the problem is that I can't stand either of my parents. My mom lives in South Carolina and I was living with her for a while, because I had to drop out of college because she lied to me about paying my tuition. She told me she was going to send me to Alaska to visit my dad for Christmas and I thought I would just be here to visit for a couple weeks or so. But I'm still here and it's March. I've called her many times crying, because I wanted to come back, but she refuses.
The reason why I want to leave so badly is because I never liked my dad, so being around him makes me EXTREMELY uncomfortable. Growing up he was very abusive physically, emotionally and verbally. He's not the same but I'm still terrified of him. I don't trust him, I don't try to criticize his bad behavior, because I saw what happened to my mother when she did the same. He smokes pot all the time, he invites his 20 year old friend (he's 58) over to drink with him until he throws up all over the bathroom and he gives her money (he's a fool if he thinks the girl likes him for his friendship). He's a misogynist, he seems to think I'm only here to take care of him and cook for him everyday. He also seems to think everything I own is also his. And he one thing that really disturbed me was when he told me he googled me one day. That is absolutely creepy to me.
Not only that, but there is nothing for me up here in Alaska. All my old friends have moved away. My only family here is my dad. As compared to South Carolina, I have tons of family, I'm never alone. And if I miss my friends from college I can get on the train to Philadelphia. Why my mother is trying to separate me from all of that I just don't understand.
The last time I asked my mom if I could leave, her response was "What now?" So I'm not talking to her anymore.
If I had it my way, I'd just leave Alaska without my parents knowing and live on the streets of Philadelphia, because that was the only place I ever called home.
