hi i have been reading posts for a week or so,and thought i should introduce myself.i go by the username scooby,and i have been dealing with depression for about 5 years.the last year and a half have really taken their toll on me though.i had a relationship break up and my brother was diagnosed with ms.
after those incidents i found concentrating on my job increasingly difficult, to save the embarrassment of failing at work,i gave up my job.i knew deep down i was breaking up,but did'nt mention it to anyone other than doctor.they prescribed me fluxotine(unsure of spelling)but it did'nt stop any of the thoughts.i stopped taking medication,and for a while i felt better.but now their back with avengence,the idea of giving up and finishing it just wont go away.what bothers me and prompted me to register on this site,is how calmly i think about ending it.
i dont know if im seeking advice,someone like minded to discuss issues with,a way to let of steam or if i just want to tell someone how it has been for me,before checking out.anyway i will leave it there for now .im 32 and writing this has been the most draining expierience of my life.seeing it in words makes it somehow seem more real.
look forward to meeting some of you on the forum,and i hope it was'nt so long an intro as to make it boring.
scooby
after those incidents i found concentrating on my job increasingly difficult, to save the embarrassment of failing at work,i gave up my job.i knew deep down i was breaking up,but did'nt mention it to anyone other than doctor.they prescribed me fluxotine(unsure of spelling)but it did'nt stop any of the thoughts.i stopped taking medication,and for a while i felt better.but now their back with avengence,the idea of giving up and finishing it just wont go away.what bothers me and prompted me to register on this site,is how calmly i think about ending it.
i dont know if im seeking advice,someone like minded to discuss issues with,a way to let of steam or if i just want to tell someone how it has been for me,before checking out.anyway i will leave it there for now .im 32 and writing this has been the most draining expierience of my life.seeing it in words makes it somehow seem more real.
look forward to meeting some of you on the forum,and i hope it was'nt so long an intro as to make it boring.
scooby