Hi I'm carebear35. I'm 35 years old and care bears were my childhood heros. I live in South Africa and have been hospitalized at least 5 times in the last 3 years, because despite medication I just don't feel I'm coping. I get verbally abused by my grandmother on a daily basis. I've been unemployed for the last 4 years, which doesn't help my mood much. I do self harm, but won't elaborate. Thank you to those who read this.