Hello everyone, I'm new to this site. What brings me here is this: I suffer from anxiety, depression, Bipolar and more. For the most part, at the moment, I'm doing "alright". But I keep having these flashes of suicidal thoughts. Like vivid flashes. The how, where, specific details. I'm not particularly suicidal but these thoughts just will not go away. it's obsessive and really irritating. I've had problems with these obsessive thoughts in the past, which has caused me big issues with not being able to focus on anything and severe sleep issues. I started drinking because it was the only thing that made me sleepy enough to sleep. I'm now drinking every night, and still not sleeping.I've been hospitalized on four separate occasions for the bipolar and severe anxiety issues. I never want to experience that again. Meds never seem to help, either I have an allergic reaction to them, or the have no effect. I just want these thoughts to go away. Like I said, I'm not particularly suicidal, but these obsessive thoughts sure are not helping. Has anyone else ever experienced anything like this that may be able to lend some advice?