Hi Everyone, I am so happy to have found this forum. While I have not had the perfect life, things have been extremely challenging recently. Eleven months ago my fiancee (now husband) admitted something to me that changed my life. After much debate, we went ahead with the wedding and now we are married. He is getting help for his problem and so am I but today I just wish I could disappear. I have felt hopeless/suicidal several times since his disclosure to me. Hoping talking about it will help.