I went to and seen some help on Tue. I just feel like the world is coming down on me and there is nothing I can do about it. Nothing I do works out for me. I try and try and still I fail. I once heard someone say if you try some thing 10 times and it still don't work what makes you think that it will work on the 11th time. I would love to find a new way to do things in my life. I know I can not change the past but I would love to have a better present and future. I don't think I can go on with life thinking that I have to live with pain and hard ship every day for the next 30 + years.