Things are moving along nicely. Next Tuesday or Wednesday I will find an excuse to "be out of town," check into a motel and kill myself. I won't be able to get the <method> I plan on using until Sunday. This is definitely a rational suicide. I am doing it both to end my own pain, and to decrease the pain felt by my family. I know everyone is going to say this will only increase their pain. True. For a couple of weeks. And then most who are willing to be honest with themselves will say "At least he finally did the right thing."