I'm not really sure what I'm going to do next year. I guess I have to go into uni or tafe or something like that. I just don't think that anywhere will take me. I'm getting A's and B's, but at the end of the day that really doesn't mean much. Nothing ever good happens to me. I try my hardest in everything I do but I never see any positive results from anything. I didn't make arts captain this year, even though I had been helping out with art society ever since I was in the lower grades and am doing 3 folio subjects. This year I've gotten more and more depressed which has led to me being put on medication and under counseling. I have tried to commit suicide several times this year withy no success because I believe that nothing will ever get better, and thus see no point in existing anymore. I believe that me wanting to commit suicide is quite justified. All I've ever wanted to do since I was a little girl is be a photographer. It's been my dream. My Art teacher however persists in telling me that my work is worthless and that I should give up now (even though she knows what I am going through) because I would never make it in the buisness. I just really don't know what to do. Do I kill myself? Do I try and pull some sort of a folio together? Do I apply for uni and tafe? If I do apply for uni and tafe, should I do visual arts courses when my teacher has told me my work is worthless? I really don't know anymore.