My anxiety is so bad I feel reckless. I want to go drive as fast as I can in the mountains. Drift around curves, dodge trees, hug the cliff's But i Wouldn't dare put other people in harms way. With all these mixed feelings and emotions. My heart and brain are enemies. Cause my brain dosnt seem to want to help with regulating feelings and emotions. And has a horrible way of managing thoughts. I have to be the mediator I shouldnt have to mediat between emotions and my thoughts, that get carried away. All I do know is they both hurt they are screaming. Which is screaming louder. What do I fix first. My heart is going to stop and my brain is going to explode. Im walking on fire. While grasping ice cubes tightly in my hands.