Whenever I am sad, like rejected or blamed, I would always smoke a red marlboro, or something strong like a mini cigar, or drink until I feel over tipsy. The rush of nicotine just relaxes me. It's practically my cure. I know this is not as big as what other people do or go through, but I just want some opinions of what else I can do. The only reason I don't do it as much is because the cigs and beer is hard to get since I'm 17. In my country, you can buy as much as you want when you're 18, and I'm turning 18 next January. What else can I do? Just curious before I stone myself silly.