Ok since my ex sent those emails basically rehashing all the facts of then he raped me because he thought they were funny I have been getting flashbacks Now those have to turned into nightmares. I wake up crying and its getting to the point that i must be crying so hard i am giving myself bloody noses. I dont even notice that i am actually crying until i start hyperventilating and wake myself up. My boyfriend wants to sleep over again but i cant let him see me like this. How do i get them to go away? They havent ever been this bad. I dont know what to do. Him and I are great and the flash backs were getting better. But now these stupid nightmares are happening. I cant handle this. I am not getting back to sleep. They are making me so tired during the day and its affecting my friendships. My therpist said to write journals. but it doesnt seem to be working. So then she told me to take a walk and tire myself out but that makes me even more tired. :sad: i dont know what to do.