Night thoughts

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Florence, Mar 14, 2011.

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  1. Florence

    Florence Antiquities Friend

    Hi,
    Why is it that the nights are so hard? Sometimes it is the days that hit hard but there is always sometime. My friend just text me and told me not to worry bout work and she was really sweetbut I am like thinking now that it is just to hard to keep going and to have to live like life is ok, when it really really isn't :(
    I know I should give the change in meds a chance (changing from citalopram to trazadone) and the time off work but the thought of just ending the pain becomes so strong.
    It's the despair that is so hard to bear and, considering I have been like this off and on my whole life, is it really worth pulling through again?
     
  2. solutions

    solutions Well-Known Member

    I can relate well, I think. During one of my depressive episodes, I could not cope with nighttime. There wasn't anything specific about it--I was just left alone with my thoughts for some time, and that's when all my suicidal and homicidal thoughts came up.

    My solution was to just drug myself into a pleasant numbness. I used a variety of antipsychotics, but Trazodone might work, too. I didn't like doing it, but I couldn't stand what was going on in my head when night came.
     
  3. starchild

    starchild Well-Known Member

    I know how you feel. Nightime is the worst, as it tends to be the hours that you're alone with your thoughts, ultimately leading to isolation and hopelessness. Please hang in there though, and changing meds could be a positive step. Maybe also try and focus on something that you enjoy and can release some of the stress and anxieties from work. :)
     
  4. Any past achievements solid to look at?? (e.g: medals of achievement, trophies, certificate of achievement, and etc..)

    Take care and :hug: Talk to anyone of us anytime in chatroom or post back a reply or PM anyone of us if you are feeling very bad.. All in all, stay safe, be safe and more :hug:
     
  5. Florence

    Florence Antiquities Friend

    Thanks for responses. I just need to somehow keep going through this week. Not sure if chat will work well on my phone, will try tomorrow.
     
  6. If chat doesn't work on your phone, keep posting back here.. Let us know you are safe and sound.. :hug:
     
  7. Fitzy

    Fitzy Well-Known Member

    Night time is pretty crap. I'm grateful for the Internet and TV to distract me or I would be even worse. X
     
  8. purpleAPY

    purpleAPY Well-Known Member

    I'm always horrible at night. i tend to be okay in the morning, then around midday i crash, feel awful, usually go home and sleep or something... then around late afternoon i feel fine again, and then at night i feel awful. its just this cycle that i cant seem to escape, it just continues on forever.
     
  9. Night is probably the worst time for me too. I have nothing to distract me, and my thoughts just start creeping in and I can't stop them. I start criticizing myself for every little thing that happened during the day, even if I really didn't do anything wrong. Usually I just drown myself in sleeping pills so I can stop my thoughts.
     
  10. Florence

    Florence Antiquities Friend

    Thank god the sunrise is here and the house is awaking ... Another night survived, made easier by all of your support.
     
  11. Fitzy

    Fitzy Well-Known Member

    Good morning!
     
  12. mulberrypie

    mulberrypie Well-Known Member

    morning, florence! glad youre okay.
     
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