Hello. Since my sisters suicide I've been having terrible nightmares. Often about her, either being alive (which may not technically be a nightmare, but I feel so shitty when I wake up and realize she's still dead), or that she's dead and I find her but she runs away, or that my mother dies, or my brother killing himself, nightmares with chainsaws, blood and gore. Sometimes it's just random shit but it drives me crazy! It's gotta to the point where I'm afraid to go to sleep, so because of that I've developed insomnia and because of me being overtired I seem to have started sleepwalking through the hours that I can actually sleep. I feel like I'm going crazy! I went to the doctor this week to get some pills to knock me out, thinking maybe it'll all stop. The doctor seen that I had a previous overdose and start bitching at me that he didn't want to give me pills because they wouldn't help since it's a psychological problem. Which I agree with, but I've tried everything else! Counseling doesnt work at all, I've had more than one counselor but it does no good. I know pills wont fix it, but maybe it'll stop be from being so crazy just for a little while. He made a deal with me that he'd give me some pills if I gave him my other pills (ones that didnt work on me) because he didnt want me to accumulate pills, which I was planning on doing.. anyway I agreed and he made me see another counselor, which didnt help at all, it made me angrier, after seeing her I was ready to off myself but didn't have anything to do it with. Anyway, the pills he gave me dont work. I feel like I'm trapped. I dont think I can be fixed. Sorry if this is a bit scattered. Has anyone had similar problems?