I feel like I'm in unchartered territory... A couple of month back I found out that my my mother's ex husband died. Granted, I did and still do feel relieved that he can no longer hurt anyone, but ever since I found out things have been hitting me hard. Memories randomly enter my mind, even though I don't want to remember and don't want to think about it. I am more paranoid of being around men, especially alone. I had a nightmare about my childhood, it effected my whole day, crying, sobbing, shaking and hyperventilating. He's gone, he can't hurt me, or anyone. You would think this would comfort me, not make me worse. I just don't understand. Why is this happening? Has anyone gone through this?