i can t take it anymore. nightmares. every night all night. they gave me something in the hospital, it's nto working. called my psychiatrist yesterday, she told me to double the dose. it made it worse. called her again today, she said to try something else. shse didnt ask about suicidal thoughts. i told her that last night was one long line of dreams in which i was killing myself. and that i's affecting me. i was depressed before the nightmares started, but now its getting worse and worse. i'm thinking about ways to get it done again. i now know what works, i just hvae to decide. the pain is too mcuh. not just one trigger, it's the sum of my life. 38 yreas of misery. its enough. i'm done.