I have a lot of dreams about my brother physically or sexually abusing me and I really hate it. He has hit me before but never sexually abused me. I have these dreams a lot and in them it feels like I'm being hurt really bad but have absolutely no control over it. Like your limb is being ripped off and you want to scream and you open your mouth and your neck strains and there is pressure in your throat, but no sound comes out. You think, maybe if you could just scream, they would stop ripping your limbs off, but no. This absence of control and power is unpleasant as well. I don't like it. Stupid dreams.