My meds used to ensure that I didnt have nightmares or at least ensured that I didnt remember any. But now they are back with a vengance. Every morning I wake up from nightmares about my brother and D/G a family friend did. I can still feel them and its driving me to cutting again. I dont know what to do. And I have to go to brunch with my uncle tomorrow and he works in mental health and he is very perceptive about when im ok and when im not. My mental health is something my family does not talk. It was a rough few years when people first figured out i was sick, i was in and out of foster care and hospital and so i was never able to talk to my parents about mental health stuff. Ive been back with my parents for about six years now and in all that time me and my family have never spoken about my mental health stuff. I dont want my uncle to say anything to my parents because we have a good relationship at the moment and i dont want that disrupted by mental health again. My parents didnt even believe me when i told them that my brother raped me so i dont trust them when it comes to mental health stuff. I dont know what to do. I cant go back to hospital not when it will bring up everything to do with my brother and im not ready to deal with that and everything it will bring up for my family.