I'm in chat, its not doing much for me. Also no on fb for me to talk to like their used to be, even if they were on I couldn't talk to them anymore because they don't understand and will just hit out at me for being this way.
There's not really much for me to say anymore. Life has just hit a brick wall and there's nothing I can do until someone throws a ladder over from the other side.
I need a release but self harm or drinking wouldn't work this time.
I guess I just have to accept this is it everynight, go through a couple of hours of hell until I can't keep my eyes open.