Every night this week i keep telling myself im going to get to bed a little early, early for me being midnight or eleven! last night i told myself that and was up until four in the morning. Its so hard to clear my mind and get to sleep. As soon as I try I start worrying about my health, worrying if I have cancer or some other disease. Then i start worrying about dieing. Thats been the worst. Its like i just cant stop. and so one night i thought i would turn on the tv and try to fall asleep, and that made things waaay worse! i turned on rocko's modern life, thinking an old stupid cartoon would be just the thing. Well just my luck that this particular episode was all about going to hell, and never being able to get out. for a kids cartoon the devil in it was very scary and disturbing. So as you can imagine that only made things worse! i think i cried and prayed for 2 hours straight before i finally fell asleep. Im not even sure i believe in God. I believe there is something, but Im not sure what. All im sure of is that im scared every night. I feel like a little kid again, even though now im not scared of the dark. well, unless i watch something really scary, so now i avoid horror films! haha, my sad attempt at humor. Any thought, comments, and/or advice would be appreciated, as long as its not intentionally mean. Good luck and best wishes to all you other insomniacs!