nothing i do in life will ever amount to anything, life is so meaningless it is just a game. I see no point in playing a game that is so boring and that will never bring me happiness. Nothing anyone one does is important it will not matter in a million years or a million million years or a million million million years, why is life so monotonous? I am not angry at the world or the people or myself. I am angry at God or the lack of God.