There is nothing wrong with me that would make anyone think I should even be considering suicide. But I do. Almost everyday. I have a loving family, an amazing fiancee, a great job, I'm doing well in college...but I'm an extremely emotionally weak person I think and even the tiniest things can send me into a downward spirial. I worry constantly, about anything and everything. I can't help it. I get all kinds of crazy ideas in my head and they grow into things that make life unbareable. I'm constantly worrying about things I know will never happen, but my body acts as if they already are. I have a history with suicide and depression and cutting, from when I was a teenager. I thought I'd gotten past it but apparently not. I just want all this pain and paranoia to stop. I'm a twenty year old woman acting like some whiny emo brat, but I can't help it. I'm always scared, I'm always worried and I don't know why. I don't know why I can't handle lifes bullshit like a fucking sane person or deal with it the way I should.