what's the point when i don't even know what i want? what's the point when i'm only going to fail in the end? what's the point when everything i do turns to shit? what's the point when there's nothing left but pain in the end? i can't seem to see any good happening in the future i try to enjoy myself day in, day out, i put on a happy face but really i'm thinking two steps ahead and knowing it's all going to end badly. i don't want this, but then i don't want false hope because i HATE being disappointed i've had too much of that to deal with right already :cry: there is no real point to my life so why should i stay? why should i just keep trying and working my fucking arse off to achieve nothing and help noone?! if i could actually help people, at least i'd have meaning then i could say i have purpose. but i never will so really... WHAT IS THE POINT?!