I've always considered suicide to be a selfish and a cowardly thing to do but honestly it doesn't really matter to me anymore, I have lost all will to live. I don't feel a thing whatsoever. I also think it would be beneficial to my parents because I know they secretly think of me as an embarrassment to them. I have zero friends, by choice by the way - I like to push people out of my life because I just do not like to deal with them. I don't have a tough life, in fact, I know a lot of people wouldn't mind trading places with me. I don't suffer from any illnesses other than a mild form of paranoia and a history of depression (so they say but not really, it was actually social anxiety which has gotten much better). Really, I shouldn't have anything to complain about. So one would ask, why even bother? And to answer that, I honestly wouldn't know how to that as incredibly ridiculous and pathetic as it may sound. It isn't a rash decision, let me tell you, I've been dwelling on it for many years now. I don't need to explain my situation, it isn't important. I don't want sympathy, don't deserve it. Basically I just want to go without leaving any traces of myself but how to do that? How to go about this? What do I do with my belongings? I'm thinking about burning most of my useless things or selling them. Destroying photos of myself. I am in the process of deleting all accounts I've registered. Do people think about small things before offing themselves? I mean they are dying after all, what could they possibly worry about other than the wellbeing of their loved ones. What are some important things that need to be taken care of before we commit the coward's way out?