I met a lovely girl in India last winter and we fell in love almost immediately. The problem was that we both had addiction problems to opiates. Anyway we decided to make a pact to quit the dope and start a new life together in Devon in England. The times we had in Arambol for 8 weeks were the best I'd ever had. I'm 43 and Joanna was 33. I never thought the age gap was a problem and we both conducted a list of our new life together including living together and finding proper jobs for the first time in ages. Joanna persuaded me to fly home from India as I was going to stay for the whole winter season. I didn´t need any persuading I can tell you. Anyway on return to the UK Joanna was still telling me how much she loved me but completely out of the blue she dumped me. This was like a bomb-shell and it has now been 5 months since she ended the relationship and I still can't get over her. The easiest way out of this would for me to just inject a massive amount of heroin and kill myself. I am staying at my parents at the moment as I can't even find a flat. I really do believe it would be better for all if I would just end all this. I have since been threatening Joanna for causing all my heartache and am afraid I might hurt her as well. Suicide for me is only just around the corner as I have nobody to turn to.:sad: How I miss sleeping in a half empty bed with nobody to hug and cuddle up to.