no escape

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by humpty, Jan 7, 2008.

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  1. humpty

    humpty Active Member

    Hi,

    I'm 38 and have suffered from social anxiety, agerophobia and depression most of my life. I've never been able to get a job the most I managed was voluntory work and courses. That was one of my better times when I had support from a support group. :biggrin:

    Everyday, I constantly think of suicide. I wish I had the courage just to get it over with. I'm constantly anxious for most of my day. I even wake up anxious and depressed.

    Life sucks, I don't enjoy anything anymore. I used to get pleasure from playing computer games. I don't even enjoy that anymore. So what's the bloody point of it all?

    I'm trying to use C.B.T. at the moment, it helps a little sometimes, but I'm just so bored and can't seem to enjoy anything.

    I wish I could just kill myself and get it overwith, but I don't want to cause people financial problems or grief. But the bloody pain is just unbearable.
     
  2. Anime-Zodiac

    Anime-Zodiac Well-Known Member

    Maybe what you need is a change of direction. What are your hobbies and passions?
     
  3. humpty

    humpty Active Member

    Hi thanks for reply,

    Thats just it. I can't get outside at the moment and the days drag by and all I do is think how to end it all.

    My passion was computers fixing them and so on. Appart from that nothing I have no other passions and that's part of the problem. I'm joyless!
     
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