The only thing in the world that I want is to die peacefully at the time of my choosing. That's my only wish. I don't want to take anyone with me (unless they choose to follow), I don't want to make a statement or prove a point, and I'm NOT "crying for help." All I want is to quietly, painlessly return whence I came. That's all. Why won't anyone let me do this? Why is it such a impossible wish to grant? Is it really so much to ask? Really? There was a time, a little over 22 years ago, when I didn't exist. There was no 'me'; no mind, no consciousness. Then, suddenly, POOF: here I am. Now I exist, through no fault of my own. I didn't ask to exist; I didn't sign up for any of this. A couple of people just decided it would be a great idea to make a new person, and that was that. Fast-forward to present, and I have come to the conclusion that I really don't like being human. I have considered the difficulties that are inherent in human life- work, illness, noise, nonsensical rules, dealing with unpleasant and hostile people, coping with loss, fear, oppression, injustice, a weak and frail body, insatiable desires, and on and on- and determined that the benefits of living do not outweigh the hell of these trials. I have absolutely no desire to play the role that has been foisted upon me. So what do I do? In a more just world, I would have the option to just up and quit. Doesn't that seem fair? Doesn't that seem like the very least the world could do for those who must bear the burden of its ills? But no, says the world, fuck that. You're going to live as long as you reasonably can, whether you like it or not, and we're going to do everything in our power to keep you here. Involuntary commitment and forced "therapy", excessive regulation or outright banning of voluntary euthanasia, suicide watches, interventions, "pro-life only" counseling, denial that one is competent or even sane for wanting to die, an ingrained culture of shame and stigma... whatever it takes. What's the point of keeping me here? Why does it matter to you? Don't I have the right to not be a slave? Why am I stuck in this prison? Why am I not allowed to die?!