no future

[SizamiTheBox]

um. not sure what a thread is, i probably doing something wrong right now. and im not sure what to say...exactly...and i dont kno what...quatlifies as a crisis...and i spell like shit

im 16 and im passive agressive and...its hard to explain....but its something i cant live with...
i need people to tell me how to do everything and if they dont then im paranoid and i think i did it all wrong... and i cant always have someone

i have no future cuz no ones gona wana tell me what to do forever

someone i kno tried to kill themself they lived but still

ive OD'd and stuff b4 but never enuff to die...i was kind of testing the waters first. but now...well everyday i think about it more, and honeslty i feel completly ready to die. i have no future...and im not gona say my family wont care

they will but sometimes ppl dont kno whats best for them...same thing goes for my friends.

i feel that wats best for evveryone is if im gone.

i dont wanna be a burden...and the world is overpopulated so one less person would reall hurt.

i cant stand living anymore

knowing whats wrong with me (and i do kno why i am the way i am)

but not being able to fix it

im just ready to die and i wana die soon. tonight would be best while i still have the nerve. if i go to sleep and then...2morow i might be afraid again...and ill have towork up the nerve again

i dont think this is a crisis but i didnt kno where else to post it...and ...im sort of new here so... :sad:

 

[crzykidshanana]

So, you'd like to not feel this way...correct?

 

[SizamiTheBox]

ya. i dont wanna feel like this anymore, and i wana have a future and be able to make decisions on my own

 

[Spearmint]

Have you talked to anyone about it? Like a family member, or close friend?

 

[Esmeralda]

Hiya! Here is a site that can help with decision-making skills. Lots of people have this problem, and you can fix it!

http://www.time-management-guide.com/decision-making-skills.html

 

[run4fun]

find some hobby to make you feel better. i can't imagine my life with no hobby.

 

[crzykidshanana]

ya. i dont wanna feel like this anymore, and i wana have a future and be able to make decisions on my own

What you could do in order to achieve this is create some goals for yourself, small at first...n' then allow them to gradually get larger. Every time you complete a goal, reward yourself.

Teach yourself to change if you don't like how you are.

Believe that you can do whatever you want to.

 

[Insignificant]

wow i sat here and read this and all i could think is if you only had some confidence. if i told you there was a way to gain some would you be interested? it's gonna take the famous last words 'baby steps'. take the initiative to do something little on your own and see how it goes. i'm betting that it will go better than you think it will. write down your success so that you have it to look back on. if by some chance what you did turned out not the way you hoped then make note of it and you can do things differently next time. it's ok to make mistakes. we all make em.

i know what i'm sharing here seems anything but easy and really it's not. i'm not going to lie and say that it is, but i'm encouraging you to take small steps of faith and be ok with it. being ok with it will just be a choice you have to make at first but after a while it will just be the way it is.

good luck and let me know it goes. feel free to pm. i'll listen