I can't ind my place in this messed up society. The city in romania that i live in, simply sucks. It's full of liars, deceit,and fake people. I just cna't seem to bond trully with anybody. I have no friends, and i live in the wrong neighborhood. Everything in my life seems wrong, except for my past. And i always end up talking to the girls in my past(in my mind, notreal life), hoping to discover true love, and happy. And i always end up talking to the exact same girls, and in the exact same order as before, and, at the end, understand that i don't fit into any circles, except one that fits most of my criteria. All i ever wanted in life was a big family. And elegance. Where the fuck are those friends with which i get along flawlessly? I have... sacred knowledge. I know that when we're in a good state of mind, and relaxed most of the times, diseases just don't stick to us. I'm skinny, and most people can beat the shit out of me. Most people spell their frustrations on me, just cause i don't want to fight them. And i don't have the friends with which just to talk, and hang out on a daily basis. I'm 29, and made a promise to myself: if i don't find the friends to love, and be loved by, at age 30, I'm doing it. All i truly neededed(and what we all need) is a best friend, or a really awesome girlfriend to share EVERYTHING with. I'm a total looser.