Hey there. I'm feeling really upset about my life. What triggered it is the same thing as always... you see... I'm a very dependent person and none of my friends want to see me today. I'm 23 years old and I still feel like a child. Here's a list of why I hate my life and want to die most of the time: - My parents divorced when I was 2 years old. - I have been seeing a counselor since I was 8. - My father was my hero, until he committed suicide when I was 11. - I have been medicated/seeing a psychiatrist since age 12. - I stopped caring about school as a child and never recovered. - I barely graduated highschool. I still don't know how the staff managed to pass me. They most likely felt sorry for me. - I have attempted suicide about 6 times, but the only two times I came close were in the past 6 years. I mainly tried overdosing on my own meds. So now my mother keeps a lock box with a key near her. - I have never had a real job. - I still live with my parents. - I have no desire to do anything with my life. - I don't know how to drive a car, and I have an irrational fear of doing so. - I have never even thought about college. - I only have a few true friends. - I rely on marijuana to keep me happy. I don't ever buy it myself, but I use/manipulate people into smoking me up most of the time. - I have a boyfriend that I have been seeing for a few years, but I know he's going to get tired of me. - I have a knack for driving people away.