I think about death, being dead, dying quite frequently. Morbid, maybe but that is how my brain works. Through therapy I have learned that my thoughts of death have the same meaning: "an end to this constant emotional pain named depression." My therapist asked me how I knew the pain would end if I died. And that's a question. Physical pain may end because the nerves are dead and unable to fire...the brain is dead and unable to receive pain signals. Is emotional pain the same as physical pain? After surgery, my physical pain was blocked by morphine. But my emotional pain was constant. So at the very least the pain is different. Is emotional pain felt in the brain or is it part of our consciousness? People with near death experiences have not been able to answer this question. Science hasn't answered the question. Since there are no guarantees, I continue.